Have you ever been training for something and you just kind of feel like you are going through the motions and not enjoying it? you feel BLAH! That is how I am feeling lately with the marathon training. we are a little over half way and I keep getting discouraged on my long runs. Either that or I dread them for the entire week before. I feel like when I know I do not have to race (like last year when I was helping Erin prepare for Boston), that I feel so much less pressure to perform. When that happens, I actually perform better and faster than I do when I am constantly thinking of the times I need to hit, or the amount of miles I have to run. Whoever says running is not mostly mental is a mental case themselves! I have this wall at mile 14 and 15 that I hit on my long runs these days that I have to say out loud to myself “Just go! open up! lengthen your stride! stretch it out!” I feel like my hips lock up, my times slow down, and I want to quit. I am not supposed to feel like that! I’m the motivator, the personal trainer, the example of being positive! Of course I want to qualify for Boston, but I can not let that lead my workouts, fuel my discouragement, or make me forget that I LOVE RUNNING! I am publicly displaying my thoughts so that I can keep a reminder to myself that to run with no pressure, have fun, and that is when the results will follow. I have ran this fast before. I have ran this far before. My body knows what to do and I just need to relax and trust it! So who wants to join in on a FUN 20 miler this weekend?!